Fool’s Gold.

I was pretty scared before my 30 birthday. Still kinda not accepted that fact to be honest. People say age is just a number, the most important thing is how you feel. But I was scared because I didn’t do multiple of things I always wanted to do before 30.

I went to the psychologist. I always wanted to do it cause I think everyone has something to work on from their past. The woman was very nice and at one appointment she asked me to do my own line of my life. It was kinda a challenge finding things in life which shaped my character. From the first day of my life. And I think this blog or more like diary will be some kind of therapy for me. That’s why I’m doing it.

I have two older brothers. The difference between us is eight (R.) and five (M.) years. It was and still is hard to find a common language for me and R. I think mostly because of a difference of years. But with M. things always were easier. First thing I remember from my childhood is when I’ve had 3-4 years old and he was picking me up from kindergarten. We used to play in game what kind of food we like to eat. I was telling him what I’ve been doing in kindergarten, sometimes I’ve asked him to go to our mom, because she has been working near to our house. When we were older we used to spend nights of vacation on playing cards.

M. is a middle child. Always good behavior, for sure favorite of our mom. Of course – parents always love all kids evenly, yeah yeah. But till today he has a skill to have amazing relations with people. Same with me and our oldest brother. He has never done anything to failed our parents, at least not very serious. We work together and everyday talk about his kids or football is just a pleasure for me. I love him and I know I can count on him with anything. Good and bad things. We support each other and I wish all the people to have that kind of special relationship with their brother or sister.